oh boy-- one of those days!

my week was as normal as normal could be.... until last night. hubby and i had gone to work out-- youngest son was at the football game-- youngest daughter still with her mom. then... out of the blue, a text message came in.

it's always a treat when oldest son gets ahold of me like this. i saw his name flash on the screen and smiled. his text-- "i miss gpa"

rather than having a blast with his buddies or whatever-- he was feeling a sense of personal loss on a friday night. ohhhh man! THUD. we text each other a couple more times, then said good-night. amazing how just a couple of text messages can send you to a place of mass emotion.

later last night, oldest daughter calls... issues on the roommate front. i'd say the conversation was short n' sweet, but let's leave it at short. we've talked about this stuff for awhile now and the situation escalated to uncomfortable-- she wanted to let me know. i opened my mouth, said a couple of things she wasn't wanting to hear at the moment and we hung up saying we'd talk again today.

i'll be the first to admit i don't always say the right things at the right times. i'm not sure if i made things worse for both kids or not last night. probably. this morning i have regret. with the whole night spent thinking about both communications, i'm pretty sure i was too sensitive to one and not sensitive enough with the other.

note to both kiddos if you're reading this-- i'd give anything to take your pain away. i can't change the way i think..... but i can apologize if i created more pain for either of you.

with hubby sound asleep, i stuck close to the dog the remainder of the night...... i can think or say anything i want and it stays so simple-- pet my head.