april 4th

must be making some good headway, i know todays date!

it's been an interesting week. oldest son received his tax refund-- wahoo! it's his first return of any substanance so i've gotta be happy for him. daughter had a nice interview with two more scheduled for april..... she's being sought out by companies. again-- gotta be happy because she's the only person i know who's being sought out! youngest son put a deposit down on his prom tux and he pitched a nice game earlier this week. and..... my personal favorite of the week, we got a phone call that there's a car in his budget that he should look at to buy.

mom decided to officially retire from the workforce on april 30th. i can honestly say this threw me as she's held onto this thing for two years with only a hand-full of visits.... all of a sudden on thursday, she tells me she'd like to go to her office friday with boxes and trashbags. she had already made phone calls to the management company, her tenant, her bank, and a woman who was her ideal candidate for taking over her mail responsibilities. when the woman makes up her mind, it's a done deal! wow.

of course i know why all of this came about as fast as it did..... it was the oral surgeons diagnosis of a spot of cancer on her tongue. she feels this is the last ta-da. while i emphatically disagree, her office is her decision and i'll abide by her wishes. she's in good spirits and i'll just do all i can to keep it that way.

i've managed to keep a grip on myself this week so feel blessed my brooding isn't winning it's never-ending efforts. the garden got weeded although there are too many other gardens to still get thru! snow is coming our way again in two days so i'll keep going as i'm able. this helps keep my mind off of the job situation. it'll be another two weeks before i hear if i made it to the next cut.

i was able to track down a high school friend of mine this week. this would be one of those "godsequences" i'm so fond of..... her mom has alz. she was floored to hear i dealt with the disease too. while her mom is in assisted living, she's struggling to find that balance we all know and need. i look forward to catching up with her and with any luck at all, helping her get thru some of her current alz issues.

have a good week, everyone!

sunday... i used to know dates. now i don't care!

thank gawd spring is here. while it's dropped from 50 to 30 today, i know it's short-lived and anymore, it's these little things that mean the most. hey-- we've got daffodils blooming. it counts, dammit!

that was a tough thing to say-- that note about the little things meaning the most. i've always been a positive person. seems anymore tho, i've been hit with the tough-stuff and can't seem to find my way back up. when times get tough i get quiet and brood. so for quite a nice little while now, i've brooded! yeahhh-- i'm that girl!!

sure, i've still got a sense of humor.... lookout if that goes!! each month i laugh about the fact i get two+ periods. yes, virginia, there is a menopause. there aren't enough tampons or toilet paper to go around. let's not speak of the fact there's a money issue at home.... we'll leave that one there thank you very much.

i've had some interviews-- a blessing to get those. the ratio of apps created vs. interviews obtained is an ugly one. no job offers yet, but hey, i'm trying like half the world. i'm working hard at networking-- this helps but so far hasn't scored me anymore than one of those interviews i referred to. the hard knocks come when people tell me that i'm everything they're looking for but they've hired an internal candidate. my brother said it all so consisely earlier..... employers can get anyone they want right now-- and at a better price. further, and more helpful to me personally, was him also mentioning that employers are beginning to let those mediocre employees go because they have better chosing opportunities now (we're an at-will state)..... so what those mediocre employees lacked or under-performed at, companies can hire better people now and get more bang for the hard-working, better skilled, long-term buck. you get what you pay for, right?

sigh. ok enough. i think i needed to get that out-- whew! maybe the brooding ends today! :)

mom's doing very well. my kiddos are great. it's me-- i'm the sticky booger! ohhhh my... what would dad be saying right now?