friday, 8/10/07

happy birthday to our youngest daughter!

today brings anxiety for me... the nurse from the AL/ALF facility we've been considering comes in for dad's assessment. i've been worked up over this since we scheduled it. heavenly father, ease my anxiety and let us all move forward as is your wish.

decisions based on the assessment will be made a bit further down the line, yet there are so many other things to consider! i find myself tossing everything back and forth a lot in my mind... which means i'm not benefiting from downtime. this is a point of trouble; i must address this ASAP.

"spin off" issues... mom. mom's work. the house. my work.

thoughts i'm batting back and forth...

dad needs more socialization. the AL facility will provide that. but so would an adult daycare. i don't like the idea of adult daycare for dad-- it just "feels" funny. moving dad into AL, would take him out of his home! is he "there" yet? perhaps have someone come to the house a couple times a week would give him someone new to talk to. yet-- i think mom would hate that someone is in her home.

back to square one.

mom leaves the house for work M-F. she has to get out. her building lease is up in september-- her work is minimal. is it worth keeping the business open simply because she has a place to go? she's got a difficult decision to make. i don't like her driving anymore... but the same rules i had for dad, i have for her. i got lucky with dad-- his guardian angel protected him well. will we be so lucky with mom? if dad isn't at the house anymore, would that help keep mom at home? her business could be run from anywhere.

would mom be able to stay in the house if dad and i weren't here? would she be safer in a small apartment closeby? would she even listen to how an independent/assisted living apartment would give her both safety and space?

breathe.