youngest son has successfully moved onto the world of college. wahoo! he moved into his dorm a week ago-- thanks to his siblings, the move was not only efficient but also inspirational. one sib took the job of moving the big stuff, the other took the job of introducing him to peeps. (i should mention they all go/went to the same university) when all was done and i headed toward home, i drove by the 3 of them walking together on the sidewalk toward a new student center. i will never lose that mental picture... it makes no difference to me that an actual picture couldn't be taken... it'll stay with me forever.
i had no sad tears as my baby-- the last to leave-- was hugged goodbye. for the record i didn't have sad tears when i said goodbye to the twins 4 years ago either. while others may consider this a mothers failing, i can only respond by knowing how i raised 'em. one goodbye-- even one a big as this, simply isn't one of over-powering sadness for me. this was what i shed blood, sweat and tears for 18 years over! i was the hardass, the mentor, the listener, the reachable, the challenger, the guide, the diversion, the 'whoa now,' the 'wellll, huh,' the communicator and provider-- as well as the failure. (yeah, who woulda thunk it?!!) not one of 'em has forgotten who they are or where/what they come from. not one of 'em has dettached themselves from the true core as they venture into their own lives. the gifts i helped give them are to be enjoyed and i'll be damned if i'm gonna put a string attached to them now! it's their time to flyyyyy.
mom has ONE more rad treatment to go-- she did it! YAY!! we've made some new friends during this process.... you can hardly sit in the same waiting room every single day and not reach out to someone going thru the same thing. not forgetting the valets, to the information desk clerks, to the techs, nurses and docs.... they all made this crappy thing endurable. all said, mom is one very blessed lady. some of our new friends really have it rough. we'll keep praying for them.
up next is treating her thyroid. we have no idea what the plan is at this point tho. we could be meeting new friends for all i know. i'm simply grateful she has a break now... her burns are painful and she needs recoup time (even tho the rad will continue it's burn for possibly months, at least it's not direct anymore).
there's a possible job on my horizon. it's a work in progress thing that's been happening for a short while now and it's mind-boggling to me how true "god's plan and time" is. i've got plenty to be concerned about yet gotta trust-- have faith-- that this isn't another test i must overcome. somehow there's got to be an acceptable middle ground for what i do and what needs to be done.
i see doable compromises available... but are they acceptable in god's eyes, in an employers eyes, in my mom's eyes, in... mine? we shall see.
hugs to all out there who continue to follow this blog.
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It sounds like things are going good for you. Congrats on getting the youngest one out of the nest. You have taught your children how to fly and now they belong to God. I'm so glad that mom is finishing those radiation treatments. I had a friend go through that and have seen how hard it is on the body. Good luck on the job front. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Pretty quiet over here. How are things going?
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