thursday, 10/11/07

where do the days go?! things have been pretty "normal" around here yet time passes quickly-- a blessing.

dad and i managed to run a bunch of errands yesterday... it was good to get him out and see a couple of people and pick up some goodies from his favorite lil market. we were wayyy overdue in getting him out and he's been quite the trooper waiting for this time to arrive.

today, we scheduled a lunch for dad.... this will give me time to do something special for mom as she's not been able to get out this week at all.

it seems we all have a lot of time to think these days. sure, there's plenty going on... in fact, a lot going on (!!) but most of those things are solitary in nature-- each of our minds just turn on and churn. each day i go thru the reprocussions of these thoughts... it's a bit of a challenge for me-- i deal with my own thoughts and absorb mom and dads too... not forgetting i also have a husband and children who also have things on their minds. this balancing act is more of a challenge than my former workplace(s)-- it's much more personal. while i can see how others view this as a unhealthy thing for me... i couldn't disagree more!

as a woman in her mid-40's... i've finally entered a very real place. this place usually finds women in their 50's or 60's. how blessed am i?!! (VERY blessed, thank you very much!) i know exactly who i am.. i know both my strengths and weaknesses and am at complete peace with both. i know who's with me and who's not-- although that one came with a few surprises. i know who and what to trust-- i know when to push forward and when to hold back-- and find great comfort knowing my gut is always right. yep, there are a lot of plans to be made. some are inclusive, some are exclusive... some will be understood, others won't be-- and i'm ok with that!

for this revelation-- for these gifts and blessings.... thank you mom and dad. thank you god. this path i'm on... is one that's understood. how kewl is that?!